Dear Jesus, I tried what you said
and you were right,
when i released my pain
i saw God´s light.
I felt God´s love enter my heart,
in trickles and streams.
The world i thought i lived in
was not as it seemed.
And i chipped at the stones,
the ones around my soul,
and i awoke my anger
and i was not nice at all.
I kicked and screamed
and threw truth on the floor.
The humility i thought i had
went straight out the door.
Then i knew i had a lot to do.
I became small and weak
and broke into pieces,
i smiled because now i could seek
the love you spoke of.
I was softer to receive it.
And i felt shame
of what i thought of you
i avoided your teaching
and thought you hated me too.
But you just told me the truth
that broke my shell
to raise me up
from my own built hell.
And i thank you
for taking the time
to show me the way
that i will walk on for life.
I am sorry i was angry at first
I am sorry i didn´t value your worth.
You helped me to heal my pain from birth
and for that i am ever thankful.
A work in progress,
Laura
Napowrimo, Day Eleven 2021
Journey of a Bard 