Introduction – Narrator
This is a story about a man who decided to split himself into three. Not a wise thing you might think, but this man was curious about himself. He started to see in his everyday life, that he wasn´t always the same person. At different moments totally different selves arised. Sometimes he felt shy, not like him at all, sometimes he felt confident and sometimes he was sad like the world rested on his shoulders.
He would busy himself in his library and laboratory, researching human behaviour and the emotions of man trying to work out how to perfect himself. What if he could bring this to humanity he thought, a way to be the best by drinking a potion. He tried experiment after experiment and a multitude of potions, and reading every book on the subject, littering his space with pages of words, and funny coloured liquids, after all he was an inventor.
One day he perfected the idea to split himself into these parts and isolate them so he could discover what was inside them and concocted a dangerous potion and using himself as the experiment.
Being a risk taker with potion in hand and knowing a spell he positioned himself and madness or courage drove him to lift the potion to his lips. He spoke some enchanted words at the setting of the sun…
“The elements of the Earth, come to me!
I wish to split myself in three!
And when the moon does rise tonight,
I wish to be put back together all right!”
And with that, the momentary darkness overthrew him, a crack of lightning struck him and all went quiet. He had split himself in three. He could hear his heartbeats beating all three of them. His three selves arose from the darkness…
A tall man dressed in finery, top hat and cane, looked down on the other two. He held himself tall and proud…While one of the other two, dressed in rags, looked up at him from his hunched position with anger and fear and gesturing the tall man to hide him. In the shadows was the third, quietly sitting and smiling behind the other two, a gentleness surrounded him.
It was a most unusual scene. They sat there for a time before one of them started speaking…
The Facade Self
((turns to hunched man, hurt self))
” Why are you sat hunched on the ground?
Get up and show your strength man and pride!
You should show the world you´re strong and able,
But instead you cower and hide…
Who am i? you might ask…Why do i say such things?
I am your facade i portray to the world…
A mask you want me to show them.
I keep your identity from being unfurled.
.
I am the smile on your face when you feel like crying.
I am the steel wall that is put before others anger.
I get you out of bed when you don´t feel like trying.
I am the one that is polite when all you feel is anger.
I dress how the world wants you to be,
So that you fit in and don´t stand out.
I am seen by the world as you want to be seen.
When you feel weak i show confidence and clout.
.
I am the mad man, that is arrogant and stern.
I beat my stick when you don´t get your way.
i chase and thrash, i hound and burn,
until people leave as they dare not stay.
I make people feel lesser so that you don´t have to.
You like my control and my power is irresistable.
I am the self defense that shields your form.
Your thirst for me is insatiable…
.
I fill your head with knowledge and words,
I polish your golden brain…
so that people won’t see your absurdity
or think you’re going insane.
I know you like me…
although you still cower and hide.
I’ve saved your status many times,
and got you some perks on the side.
.
At dances i bow to the ladies… ((bows to narrator))
I portray the you, youvé always wanted to be.
I charm and compliment and forget the maybe´s.
Where would you be without me?…
I hide your grief, your shame and your fears,
So that you never have to face them.
Then i put on a show for others to see,
And i wear this mask as an emblem.
((puts on a mask))
.
You are the hurt self i try to conceal.”
((Folds arms, turning his back on the hunched man))
The Hurt Self
((Gets up tentatively and talks to the back of the facade self))
” Yes i am the hurt self,
with head held low.
I rock myself to sleep sometimes,
when i feel safe and alone.
I am too afraid to show myself.
To show my rags and pain.
I prefer to hide behind you,
so people think i am sane.
.
I hide from the ladies…
I don’t want them to see me,
this wreck of a man…
devoid of love and cowardly.
one must not show weakness,
in this world of madness,
so I sit behind you,
and try to forget my sadness.
.
But oh! i feel this hurts too much,
to keep this charade going.
I sometimes long to be real,
No matter what ugliness is showing.((points to facade))
I am scared of many things…
I am not as brave as you show…
If i were true, what would people think,
of me cowering down below.
.
This pain in my soul has stacked up and up,
it has stunted my feet from walking.
And though my mind is full of books,
I am tired of this intellectual talking.
In this mirror is a sad man,
one that wants to cry.
and cry if i am not allowed to do…
then surely I must die.
.
No!…
It’s just pain…
Emotional but real…
It’s true…
.
I am sad and aggrieved.
My tears could fill a river.
People would find it hard to believe,
and at the thought of it i shiver.
But in those moments i have let go
and let my weakness consume me,
i felt an openness to something real,
a little light shone through me.
((Cowers again on the ground and rocks himself back and forth))
Oh the battle between this mask and my true feelings
I don´t know what to do.
Is there no hope for me to see this through “
The Real Self
((Real self gets up and crouches by hurts self’s side, then stands up and talks to him.))
“Oh hurt self, you beat yourself up
with things you cannot control.
Your pain and error must be felt
before you will find me, your real self, in your soul.
I am the real self, the inspirer, the creator,
full of passions and desires unfulfilled.
I smile at the world from the truest place,
with no thought for me to be concealed.
(( facade self shakes head or raises arms up in disgust at real self))
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I am the real you with qualities and passions,
your real personality waiting to thrive.
I am the moments of kindness, the love that you give,
the moments that you come alive.
I am the real you without childhood trauma.
I have faith and courage in my being.
I live in wonder at the good of creation.
My life is oh so freeing!…
.
I dance as if life was never ending,
I dress the way I’ve always wanted to look.
There are no closed doors, the paths are clear.
My life is an open book.
I travel, happily, onwards and upwards
on a continuous, glorious, adventure.
Everything is a lasting discovery
in this ever loving venture.
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I love unconditionally myself and my kin
and lend them a hand when they fall.
I am the stars in your eyes, the breath of warmth,
the compassion you sometimes wish to give all.
I am the real self i sit and wait
for the other selves to resolve,
and find me and bring me forward.
I wish for your pain to dissolve…
.
Let me step into the light,
create joy and happiness for you,
so that i can be how i was designed to be,
but this… is up to you.
.
so let go of your mask and feel your pain,
and you will find me through and through.
The Dance
And with that the three selves started bickering and arguing with each other. Dancing with each other in a strange conflicting moment. They were one but not quite one at the same time.
(Dance here to Waltz)
The Moon rose higher in the sky and as they danced they became more and more unified getting closer and closer together again. Each step resistive to this reunion, each swirl reluctantly bringing them back together. They fought it but an energy more powerful than them brought them back together again.
Conclusion
Narrator
And as the moon rose high in the sky. All went black as it did before the lightning struck between them and he awoke on the ground, back together again. He was tired and shocked from what had occurred. Scratching his head he got up and wondered who he was right now, The facade self, The hurt self, or his real self. He could see everyone around him had the same dilemma.
Which self did he prefer?
The choice for him felt simple, the facade self or the real self, one required no more effort than carrying on, but the other required he pass through his hurt self in order to reach it. He reasoned the real self should be his goal no matter what he had to face to get there. The facade although looking good was hollow inside and false, the real self was radiating good from the inside out.
What an insight the man had had into the facets of himself. He felt inspired to throw off his facade, to feel his pain and become his real self. He now could see which self he was in and work to resolve it. He walked off into the distance more real than he had ever been and becoming realer and happier with every step.
He saw his design and accepted it.
-End-
(Written by Laura Berry)